Butter, Processors and Calculus

   I have to say, shops in Cyberia will ream you. A small burger would cost RM2.50, and I found out today (to my great annoyance) that they mark up the price of butter by 37%! FUCK! If I were ever to move to that place, then I’ll buy a week’s worth of groceries and live off that instead of shopping there.

   Speaking of which, it seems that butter is giving me a sense of ennui and lifelessness. I feel so uninterested in everything I do… I wish I can eat something more nutritious, but right now I’m totally broke, so I’m afraid I’m on “starvation mode” until the end of next week. Which means, I’ll be living off bread-and-butter for the next 5 days… and on exam week, no less. This is academic suicide at its worst.

   Speaking of exams, I really gotta say that Introduction to Machine Architecture seems to be written as a cure for insomnia. It’s dry, boring, complicated and a complete snore-fest. I studied a few chapters tonight, and at the end of it it knocked me cold for 3 hours. And I just woke up a few hours earlier, too… if I ace this subject it will be a miracle.

   Of course, that would be *if* I actually get to sit on the exams. Still having trouble… there’s a very real possibility that I will be barred and have to repeat the semester. Worst case scenario will be me quitting the university (not likely, but it is a very real possibility, and I’d peg the probability at 10%), although I hope that wouldn’t happen; I actually liked it here, I love the subjects, and I don’t want this to be the third university I dropped out of.

   So there you have it. Sucky exam situation, bad diet and friends that is acting like a spoiled brat (just why the hell do I keep believing in people? Guess it’s sort of my fault too…). Why do problems keep piling up on me on such a crucial time? I want to rage, rant, scream and smash, it is as if everything and everyone in my life is conspiring against me. Not the “kill Amry’ sort of conspiracy, more of a “let’s annoy the hell out of him until he breaks down and cry like a little baby”.

   Ah, this sucks. I wish my university is located at a place that’s a bit more cosmopolitan, instead of being in the middle of nowhere. Even if I want to go out and relax, there’s really no place I can go to. Correction: no place that I can go to where I won’t stumble into horny teenagers trying to score a quicky. People, bushes and dark places are for dogs and possibly ghosts / vampires, please spare a thought for the people who would have to clean up all the used condoms afterwards.

This picture made me smile… don’t understand it? Get out more, then